NEVER EVER GIVE UP ON YOURSELF

I wish my Drs would admit when they don’t know enough. And doesn’t mock me for my symptoms. With due respect to their wisdom and experience, my pains and sufferings are real. For if they can’t diagnose, making me go round and round between labs, test and scans will not help either of us. Thanks to a dear friend who recommended me “What your Dr doesn’t know about” by Ray D Strand, which put me on my path to healing and recovery. It ignited hope and faith again. It made me believe that my body can feel normal again. 

There are no shortcuts in life and to think that all our pains, either physical or emotional, will go away on their own would be unwise. I have been stumbling and struggling ever since but never gave up on myself. It is said, time is the biggest healer of all but at times you have to take things in your control to make them right. 

It was a journey of self-awareness and enlightenment. It made my path crossed with people who were well read, well learned and happened to be ahead of me on the same trek. They gave me a lot of support, courage and unconditional love. I became wary of individuals who intensified my anxiety but severing ties with them were not easy. I still strive to gain balance between my new and old belief system, which in no way is easy. 

I am still learning every day, I still stumble at days but now I have the courage to admit that, “If I have fallen, I will get up.” Maybe this day is not easy but I will get through it. I am brave enough to acknowledge and face my fears. I live with the hope that the crack I have managed, to let the light in, will soon transform in to a rainbow.